To a certain teacher

You have been working hard. too hard for my liking. I do have other work to do too. sometimes I do get angry in the heat of the moment, but after contemplation it's really for my own good. I plead your acceptance of my apology.

Sincerely yours,
Pete.


spent 2 hours and 50 BUCKS on teacher's day presents today! LOL.

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I slept late last Sunday night and so I woke up feeling extremely ALERT and HIGH. That's just the way it is with me. and so, I was very much alert Monday morning during chapel while the others were kinda dozing off or stoning. I childishly bullied people and get high, which I really feel I love to do, and wouldn't mind doing so for a career, if there is ever such a career. (NO a joker is too extreme.) lol. Well yeah as I looked around from my OMNISCIENT (yay lit!) view I see very much everything around me, and I see with an air of enthusiasm and an air of childlike playfulness that I really want to preserve. Sometimes I really wonder whether I want to grow up, for remaining a child forever and always seem to be so enjoyable!

LOVE being a child!



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Sometimes I really thought everyone is evil. everybody has selfish motivations despite their hidden nature. But then I realise, I can make a world a better place in a very unique way of my own!

May all beings everywhere plagued with sufferings of body and mind
quickly be freed from their illnesses.

May those frightened cease to be afraid,and may those bound be free.

May the powerless find power, and may people think of befriending one another.

May those who find themselves in trackless, fearful wilderness-- the children, the aged, the unprotected-- be guarded by beneficent celestials, and may they swiftly attain Buddhahood. When I deeply contemplate the transient nature of human life, I realize that, from beginning to end, life is impermanent like an illusion. We have not yet heard of anyone who lived ten thousand years. How fleeting is a lifetime! Who in this world today can maintain a human form for even a hundred years? There is no knowing whether I will die first or others, whether death will occur today or tomorrow. We depart one after another more quickly than the dewdrops on the roots or the tips of the blades of grasses. So it is said. Hence, we may have radiant faces in the morning, but by evening we may turn into white ashes. Once the winds of impermanence have blown, our eyes are instantly closed and our breath stops forever. Then, our radiant face changes its color, and the attractive countenance like peach and plum blossoms is lost. Family and relatives will gather and grieve, but all to no avail? Since there is nothing else that can be done, they carry the deceased out to the fields, and then what is left after the body has been cremated and has turned into the midnight smoke is just white ashes. Words fail to describe the sadness of it all. Thus the ephemeral nature of human existence is such that death comes to young and old alike without discrimination. So we should all quickly take to heart the matter of the greatest importance of the afterlife, entrust ourselves deeply to Amida Buddha, and recite the nembutsu. Humbly and respectfully. Namaste.

Well my chinese oral is over! so! now it's blog blog time. i have a few more to come haha.

So, I was at S'pore's immigration (getting into the airport). And I'm waiting for my turn so I was just looking around and I spotted this group of stewardesses at the air crew row. I was trying to recognise the airlines they belong to and they were quite chatty too! Then I saw this blonde tall air hostess... she took the FOX candies at the counter there. she took two first. then decided it's not enough. so she took one more. then she took another one. it was so cute la haha! then she turned around then she saw me looking at her i think lol. then she gave me this megawatt smile which is soooooo adorable. (she's quite young btw lol) and i just smiled back at her thinking if the world is just full of this kind of bubbly people life would be so much happier.


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Everyday I make mistakes. We make mistakes. Humans make mistakes. That's why every time I receive a piece of work or a formal document I always expect mistakes here and there. So it comes to me as a pleasant surprise to see a mistake-free document the first time round. like wow! Well I guess it's a good thing. Teachers who put in that little bit extra effort to produce flawless work should in fact be appreciated.


Friendly and helpful salesperson or clerk are also difficult to find these days. I am very very happy that the Thai Airways clerks are very friendly and helped me to clear my doubts and helped me with my every request.

It just gives you a sense of satisfaction and appreciation doesnt it. hooray to humanity!


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A lot of stressmakers in school. since i havent started my revision. for real. and i love 'don't forget the lyrics!' !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P

"Not in my best dreams could I have imagined this." Rafael Nadal on winning the gold medal.

how true. how true.

Went for a sustainable development talk organised by ECO yesterday morning, an ineffective one. I've always felt that this kind of talk, arousing people's interest in global issues, must play very very largely, if not solely, on emotions. and they didnt do that. to be honest I've always had respect for ECO and since they've been to CSD sessions before I expected people with great oratorical skills - turns out otherwise. All but one of them didn't even capture my attention despite my interest in sustainable development. Emotions people emotions! It's such a powerful impetus, an untapped source/vehicle for mass transition into a greener world.

I attended another sustainable development talk - much smaller-scale one. just a small group discussion. it really works. contributing ur opinions and listening to other voices. oh well i'm not sure if i'll be able to maintain an interest in this issue.

but it does pain me to see people, in my very own school, foregoing sustainable development and environmental conservation for other selfish causes.


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What will you do if you spot a strayed kitten, one foot in length, near an MRT station far far away from SPCA with its mom nowhere in sight? Will you even bother to stop and think about it? Will you even bother to try to get it an owner?




I admire you. It doesn't get better than that. You did all you could :) don't worry about it now.

Kudos to kindness. <3

a message from the cute robber-cum-mugger Alex Lim Yu Sheng:

"You [all] are supposed to be blinded by the light of my awesomeness."

HAHA. speechless man. simply speechless.

People come and go, but real friends stick with you.       :)

Why are there so many people in the world? Are we born to naturally have a strong dislike towards a certain group of people, or is this born out of sheer evilness in our hearts?

Sometimes I get irritated rather easily, and I always blame the other party for this vexation. but it's not really him. it's me. This is another of those things I learn everyday observing how I act towards people. It's disappointing I must say. I'm trying hard to change. I am.

Where do I start?

The world seems so drab and desolate. At times there really seems to be nowhere to turn to. You know what you should do, but you wish you have that certain someone to move on the journey with you, or you wish there's that certain something that will guide you along the process.

Where is Atman to be found? Seeking the Middle Path doesn't seem like a futile idea after all.

Afterall, happiness comes from within.




But then again, there's that group of special someones that I look forward to meet everyday. I hope that includes you.        (:


PS: icy ole font WE NEED TO CATCH UP.

In the immortal line of Martin Luther King: "I have a dream."

I dream that one day, when I reincarnate, I can look at our history and proudly think that WE have overcome global warming. WE have tackled the great crisis. It was tough, but the world did it.

BUT (a big BUT)

At the rate we're going, this dream's nowhere in sight.

I am utterly utterly utterly devastated at the Olympics results this year. Never before since the loss of Yaowapa Burapolchai at SEA Games 07 (due to sheer arbitrary misjudgment of the judges - a video confirmed it) have I been so saddened by something that is not related to my emotional problems. (This excludes tennis ofcourse, tennis has an overarching influence on me). All of Thai athletes, those who the nations had high medal-winning hopes of, lost today. Boonsak Ponsana and Wandee Kameiam. sigh. there's always a victor and a loser though. Sigh. Well WE'VE GOT A GOLD ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!

The funny thing is that the gold medalist has went through tremendous and numerous disasters. and she changed her name after all that disasters, hoping to have a new life and a fresh new start. and look at where she is now. i'm proud of her!

(and it reaffirms my inclination towards the influence one's name has on one's personality and fate)

And I again forget all I wanted to say.

Apart from the fact that Thailand wasn't as good as I expected. I needed a happier time. but I didn't wanna come back here though. I now officially declare Singapore = Stress.

I watched MADE OF HONOUR on the plane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I like I like. but it's such a stupid movie. so predictable. lolol.
(I ate two plates of food heh)

Oh oh now I remember! I wanna talk about WHERE THE MIRACLE HAPPENS.

It is such an AWESOME movie. VERY TOUCHING. I cried. and I say this not as a Thai promoting a Thai movie but as a friend recommending a movie that will open a new perspective definitely unseen to Singapore. I AM WILLING TO WATCH IT AGAIN U CAN TAKE ME ON A DATE! :P

<3<3<3

The best I've ever attended! wooooohooooooo!

It doesn't really hurt that it's at Fullerton, and it doesn't really hurt that the DJ SO FREAKING ROCKS!!!!

Words fail to describe the moment. It's one of the most bashing fun time I've ever had my whole life, and no i will NEVER go clubbing if I'm not forced to. it's against my morality.

Again, thank you ASEAN committee you all have really impressed me!

Maybe sometimes we're just too critcical/presumptuous, and maybe we should learn to appreciate the way things are; the way like doesn't go as expected, and the way there are people out there who're more capable than you despite what you think, and the way there are people who hate you, the way you are not the best, the way you think the way you feel (no matter how much you hate it), and the way pensive sadness is inevitable, and the way I should try to enjoy life more. the list is inexhaustive. yay.

ROCK ON!!!!!

I must say choir performance is (I'm sorry) disappointing. I can't help comparing it to last year, which I thought was enjoyable. But the problem may actually be me. As I watch the choir and dance performances, arguably the two extremes of emotions/methods of expression, I find myself awkwardly stuck between the two, unable to identify with either sides. Consequence of having a split personality? I guess so.

Choir seems to be nice. Their vocals were good, but void of emotions. The emcees were talking about the happiness/sadness/excitement of the songs but when I watch the performances they weren't really reflected. That's what I feel. Yet it is sad that I can't appreciate art. Really sad. It's such a beautiful thing.

IMO the dances were the <3. Entertaining, spectacular. A little bit of emotions. I just can't connect to it still.

Somebody tell me what to do.

PS: This juxtaposition of dance and choir performances also point out that the crowd identifies more with happiness and excitement, which is not a bad thing. However, I am wondering if there's still a place for a true flawless display of emotions in this fast-paced world.

"Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." - Alfred Lord Tennyson

This is THE LOOK. I love it. stunning. irresistable. HAHA.


THIS IS THE END OF IOC EXAMINATION.

Sorry, I had to do that. lol.

Not bad IOC. could've been better, and i'm sad about it, but it was ok. sigh.


and watched DARK KNIGHT today! :P

it was good. to quote nirasha: heath ledger is "insatiable". hahahha. he's not that insatiable, but acted really well.

and no spoilers until tomorrow.

The phrase up there. classic. Mentioned in the movie, mentioned in one of my favourite tennis match, imprinted in my mind...

An irresistable force meets an immovable object. doesn't this sentence give one a sense of satisfaction! haha. i'm impressed with this phrase.

Going to NJ was fun fun fun!!! :D Easily the most enjoyable day of the last few months. YAY YAY YAY! Now... IOC. lol.

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Today someone just pointed something about me, something that I know I am but I didnt think other people would view me in this way. And it's really a sad reminder of my life. it's something I've been working on for a long time, but to no avail. whoever (me) says trying your best is enough.

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I would also like to discuss how ingrateful students can be these days. so there's a big exam coming up, and so they become egocentric and self-centered and only care about themselves. Can't you just help the teachers for a while? Aren't the saying 'many hands make light work' true? So you think other people not busy can do the job for you is it? Okay you think i'm overreacting, but it did not happen just once. twice. trice. easily five times at least. and you say your teachers complain and vent a lot. when you can't even do a little thing to help them.

This has actually made me appreciate the importance of respect to Thais. Maybe Singapore is just different, and I don't like it. Okay true, Thais are not that obedient nowadays, but at least they try to help their teachers, albeit not all the time. but this is almost ALL the time.

I would like to commend some people who go by the name of Johnny Depp and Tell Me, for being helpful, no matter how retarded you are (don't worry Johnny Depp you're not a part of this).

But I am just this one Thai boy, insignificant, uncared-for, too serious about everything, too respectful, too crazy, too emo, too pro-environment, too pro-social activism.

One day, I hope someone, at least someone, will regret the past.

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"You cannot do all the good the world needs, but the world needs all the good you can do."

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Courtesy of owl_clan

I miss the old days, back when people who had trouble socializing were just people with trouble socializing.

Nowadays, (due to the financial rewards awaiting the industry) they have "Socialization Impairment Syndrome" or "Asperger's Syndrome" or "Socialization Deficit". Things were so much simpler back when we were innocent and lacking in knowledge of these terrible afflictions.

Soon, people who love role-playing games or computer games will have "Oversubjective Imaginal Fixation Syndrome", instead of what they were before: kids with big imaginations or just dweebs and geeks. I'm sure a bottle of pills will come with that label, as well, or a long stay in a psychiatric hospital. With any luck, we can squeeze some electroshock therapy out of it, as well. Take that, TSR!

Do you remember the days when people were just "introverts"? You know, those kids that didn't like to join the Boy Scouts and learn to tie knots, or those kids that just didn't like going to pool parties and prom? Nowadays, you can get the "Avoidant Personality Disorder" label, and the Meds that come with that, too.

I remember when kids (like myself) had trouble with Math in school, or trouble with reading, and they had to just go to summer school. Nowadays, you can get labeled with "Mathematics Disorder" (which is 315.1 in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders) or "Reading Disorder" (315.00) or, if you aren't the sort of person who can write well, you can get "Disorder of Written Expression" (315.2).

Yes sir... soon the pill that will fix "Basic Human Existence Syndrome" will be invented, and the disorder of being Human will be taken care of. We'll rest then, in peace and happiness and harmony will settle over the world. Buddha's way is too complicated. It takes too long. The pill will replace it, and that's a Dharma everyone will be able to pop.


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Interesting piece. reflects most of my sentiments. sometimes the advancedment of the world just complicates our lives too much. I really would like to try leaving in the 90's. what you don't know won't hurt you anyway.

I really think that savoury food stimulates the production of endorphins in my body. really. i was damn happy after eating seven tiong bahru paos yesterday. haha. well this is at the expense of a bulging stomach. sigh.



and I am also regretting that there seems to be no second chance. none at all....

Best "Nations" stats to date:

Political Freedom 64.6	Economic Freedom 99.9
Social Freedom 97.6	Religious Freedom 36.7
Environment 97.3	Crime Control 98.0
Technology 99.4	Education 100.0
Health 98.2

Population Growth 99.6	Military Strength 96.7
Average Wealth 36.9	Employment Index 99.8

YAY! Maybe I should become a politician. lol. i'm considering it. Obama FTW for now.