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It's just so horrible isn't it. The way I'm acting. The way I'm thinking. I just don't understand myself. at all. this sucks. you know you shouldnt be doing something and yet you're doing it. I just can't seem to change myself. Oh god I don't even comprehend myself. This is just utter nonsense. and it again boils down to what's my purpose in life. seriously. i'm just like a nomad wandering around without any aim at all. sigh. and all these things about the cruelty and the injustice in this world, I really wish i can just disconnect from the world sometimes. move backward in time to a period where i can just admire the beauty of nature without worrying about time, without worring about my future, without worrying about what is right and what is wrong. is the world too cruel? is it too criticising? is it too condemning? is it too condescending? who am i to say. As far as I can see it, the world's not going to get better, especially with the natural disasters coming up. mankind will turn more aggressive and hostile towards each other, and yes one day the world will be gone, with us.
Life is just really like a blur with a chaotic mess of experiences. Something you've done wrong in the past, and you cant correct it. the world doesnt give you second chance. i mean, people can redeem themselvesm but what has been done, will forever been done and will forever be talked about. and that sucks. people make mistakes! can't we just erase the mistake then?! easier said than done. well i've made a lot of mistakes. grave mistakes that i regret til this day. and today i've added one more to the list.
Why am i still here.
Luckily, my body is built with a high tolerance for stress. if not, god knows what happens.
And thank you everybody, for being there for me, especially to a certain someone. who has always listened to me, no matter how nonsensical i may sound. you know who you are, and just to let you know, i really appreciate it. :)
once I've understood life, I'll tell you. but for now, life is too precious and fast-paced to be living in this kind of self-inflicted emoness and chaos.
i wish i've got the greatest gift of all, to be content with who i am.
Sigh. Oh well, I still thank god for all the enjoyments in my life! :)
On a lighter and more aromatic note,
Life is just really like a blur with a chaotic mess of experiences. Something you've done wrong in the past, and you cant correct it. the world doesnt give you second chance. i mean, people can redeem themselvesm but what has been done, will forever been done and will forever be talked about. and that sucks. people make mistakes! can't we just erase the mistake then?! easier said than done. well i've made a lot of mistakes. grave mistakes that i regret til this day. and today i've added one more to the list.
Why am i still here.
Luckily, my body is built with a high tolerance for stress. if not, god knows what happens.
And thank you everybody, for being there for me, especially to a certain someone. who has always listened to me, no matter how nonsensical i may sound. you know who you are, and just to let you know, i really appreciate it. :)
once I've understood life, I'll tell you. but for now, life is too precious and fast-paced to be living in this kind of self-inflicted emoness and chaos.
i wish i've got the greatest gift of all, to be content with who i am.
Sigh. Oh well, I still thank god for all the enjoyments in my life! :)
On a lighter and more aromatic note,
Clifton's feet
(Anonymous)
i hope you'd erase what i did too. you know what i mean!
AND AND, yea aromatic because of benzene?
d'oh hahahahh
=D