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The responsibility of an adult.
This period of life is full of questions, like Siddhartha. hahah. and i dont have his willpower so im kind of getting bored of it, and shall spare my friend peteinsintheair from getting bored also.
i just wanna escape from this life. the life in which everything you do is related to work. school work. even u go out to relax from stress from school/work. it's jsut a vicious cycle. ah cycle ah siddhartha! samsara. tsk tsk.
On a different note, I really really dont wanna grow up, as i mentioned before. Being an adult you have to make decisions, and i HATE making decisions, and the responsibility that comes with it. it sucks. i can't decide for nuts! and whenever i make a wrong decision i always feel guilty, and EMO. haha. on the other hand, being a teen has limited freedom, but u have the freedom to live, to be whoever you want, to be free from decisions, to be free from responsibility. i just want to remain like 21-24? forever... and it's not because of the youthful look if that's what you're thinking. i dont really care how i look.
Perhaps this is one of the things about life that I cannot grasp. and that prevents me from having a complete knowledge of om and samsara, and the voice inside my heart. i've been trying to hear it for so long. but to no avail. ahaha well it's expected, for the amount of effort i put in. but i think by thinking abt all this i'm beginning to get more mature. no! that's scary! i want to remain childlike and childish. both of em. they're cool. we're cool. hooray to boyish pranks :D speaking of which, i think i left paddy clark in thailand. lol.
By the way, I've converted Gideon to a The Afters fan! CHEERS! The afters are just simply awesome. omg. <3 <3 them.
i just wanna escape from this life. the life in which everything you do is related to work. school work. even u go out to relax from stress from school/work. it's jsut a vicious cycle. ah cycle ah siddhartha! samsara. tsk tsk.
On a different note, I really really dont wanna grow up, as i mentioned before. Being an adult you have to make decisions, and i HATE making decisions, and the responsibility that comes with it. it sucks. i can't decide for nuts! and whenever i make a wrong decision i always feel guilty, and EMO. haha. on the other hand, being a teen has limited freedom, but u have the freedom to live, to be whoever you want, to be free from decisions, to be free from responsibility. i just want to remain like 21-24? forever... and it's not because of the youthful look if that's what you're thinking. i dont really care how i look.
Perhaps this is one of the things about life that I cannot grasp. and that prevents me from having a complete knowledge of om and samsara, and the voice inside my heart. i've been trying to hear it for so long. but to no avail. ahaha well it's expected, for the amount of effort i put in. but i think by thinking abt all this i'm beginning to get more mature. no! that's scary! i want to remain childlike and childish. both of em. they're cool. we're cool. hooray to boyish pranks :D speaking of which, i think i left paddy clark in thailand. lol.
By the way, I've converted Gideon to a The Afters fan! CHEERS! The afters are just simply awesome. omg. <3 <3 them.
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